Who passes by this road so late?

Eeek

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 19:31:38 GMT

So I got an email yesterday from Nottingham, inviting me to interview for Medicine. Yay! Only thing is, it's on Monday. Not so yay.

I was a little worried about it being so close yesterday, but after school today my German teacher offered to give me a mock interview to help me out (I love her), and that's when it hit me. I started crying in front of her because of how sudden it all was. She was really nice about and said I had good answers to her questions (despite my habit of overusing the word 'like' :P), but I'm still really nervous about it.

It's just that I'm worried this will be the only interview I get, and that if I mess it up it could be goodbye Medicine. My teacher told me it was less time to get nervous, but I'm still managing to get fairly damn nervous in this short space of time. So whilst I am ECSTATIC to even get offered an interview (for Nottingham, 700 out of 2000 applicants get interviewed, and about half of that 700 get an offer), I know how competitive Medicine is and I know how much is riding on me doing well. I just hope I don't let nerves take over :S

Anyway, after my slight breakdown today I'm wondering whether I should duck out of LJ Idol. I absolutely love doing it but I know I'm not giving it as much attention as I should. I'm also doing NaNo and all of that combined means that I'm not spending enough time on schoolwork and I'm not spending ANY time on my extended project or doing reading around my subjects/medicine.

Agh, I don't know :S

LJ Idol Week 3 - Smile

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 12:26:34 GMT

"You looked very serious up there. You could do with loosening up a bit - I'd have liked to have seen you smile a bit more." This was the remark of a certain judge, after the first round of a debating competition. I grinned in response, laughing at the criticism. "Yes, like that!"

In truth, I'm quite a cheerful sort of person. I'm not one of those crazed people who thinks everything is a joke and is constantly on a high, but I know how to take a joke, how to laugh, and definitely how to smile.

I love debating. I really do. My face when I'm taking part obviously expresses otherwise, but I really enjoy it. It scares me senseless half the time - especially when you're addressing a room of thirty or so people on a subject you really couldn't care less about - but I wouldn't trade that feeling of pride when my team wins for the world. It's a lot like playing a sport, except there's less danger of me injuring myself.

I don't want to give the wrong impression here; I'm not a private school kid, and I haven't been doing debating since I was ten - those are actually the people we take on in competitions every year. Our school team, as the token state school, is always the underdog; every round, we role up in as close as we can get to matching colours, and are subsequently greeted by blazers, emblems and people named Basil.

We can hold our own well; we're always well prepared, and have as good an argument as anybody. It's our presentation that lets us down. Not our dress - although it does set us apart somewhat - but the way we deliver ourselves during the debate. We get so wrapped up in our points and statistics that we don't capture the lawyers and generals who make up the judging panel with our incredible wit and breathtaking smiles. Because of that, we've only ever progressed as far as the second round.

That's the trouble with these competitions. Your argument can be flawless, but it's your ability to flash those pearly whites that really counts.

LJ Idol Week 1 - Empty Gestures

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 19:01:03 GMT

It's the stubborn man's way to end a dispute; the way to say sorry without apologising, the way to finish an argument without conceding defeat. And I learnt it from none other than my father.

"I'm sorry (you feel like that)."

Don't get me wrong; I love my dad. I think he's great. I mean, what's not to like about a guy who shows you 'classics' such as Alien and Poltergeist and Jaws before you even hit ten years of age, but refuses point-blank to let you get your ears pierced? I actually think he'd be something of a genius, if Mum wasn't smart enough to see through it all.

You see, in my house, arguments always follow a certain pattern. My dad will piss my mum off about something - he'll want to start 'saving independently' for a new bike, or he'll stay out in the garage-cum-study until all hours working on his Maths assignments. Then, Mum will turn completely irrational; usually she'll tell him to "stop raising your voice" so loud it'll make your ears ring, refuse to eat dinner and then go to bed. And that's when the empty gestures start.

Firstly, Dad will bring Mum a cup of tea. That's nice. But he does make one for himself whilst he's at it.
Secondly, Mum will explain (a little bit more rationally) what she's so upset about. And no matter what that is, Dad will never "mean it like that".
Thirdly, after Mum getting worked up again, Dad will issue that classic line to her, tailored to fit the situation. I'm sorry you thought that. I'm sorry you feel that way. I'm sorry you didn't understand me.

I'll usually go to bed myself after all of that, and in the morning everything will have blown over. And that's how it has happened for as long as I can remember.

Maybe there was a time, at the start of their marriage, during those newlywed fights, when those gestures of my father would have been apology enough for my mother. But it's twenty years later now, and she's cottoned on. I suppose my dad's greatest fault was never updating that old routine of his.

At least I know how to wrap up marital disputes of my own when the time comes. After all, I do inherit my stubbornness from him.

LJ Idol

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 19:04:08 GMT

In a desperate attempt to get back onto LJ properly and to stop being so lazy, I am officially joining up to Season Six of LJ Idol. zxwx led me to this, I'd never actually heard of it before yesterday (the horror!). I think it'll be good to get myself into the writing mood before NaNo comes around again.

So, hi everybody!

Ten Weeks

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 22:26:40 GMT

It's been ten weeks since I've posted, and around that since I've last been on LJ. God, I've been lazy. A fair bit has happened but nothing that I could've posted about quickly, if I could've been bothered.

I'm just back from Corfu, which was lovely :) I'm not very tanned because a) I really don't like sitting out in the sun for that long and b) I don't tan well even if I DO sit out in the sun for long, but meh, I'd rather pale than skin cancer :) I went scuba diving one of the days and I'm looking in to starting doing it back home now.

I'm currently having a 'Charlotte has left the chat' moment. It took me five minutes to hit the enter button too :|

I went to Germany the week before that, to do work experience in a city called Koblenz. I was in a hospital which I was really pleased about :) I got to do SO much more stuff than I've ever done volunteering in an English hospital, I was taking pulses and temperatures in my first few hours there. I did really like it when I was actually DOING something, but because I was only there for one week and tbh couldn't understand them half the time/was scared to talk in German, there wasn't a great amount for me to do. I spent SO MUCH of my day cleaning the same spots over and over to kill time.

My Charlotte came back online and replied to me and actually agreed to my invite, life is good :)

I did my D of E expedition which was an absolute MISSION. I couldn't do the last day because I was physically sick, I'd been feeling awful for the other days too and couldn't eat a lot. I'm really considering whether I should do the real thing because I'm not sure whether I'm up to it.

Results are TOMORROW, I'm seriously nervous. I'm resigned to doing awful in Maths and I'm slightly worried about Biology, but I think Chemistry and German went well. Fingers crossed!

On a school theme, I've been looking around lots of universities and have probably decided on Sheffield, Nottingham, Southampton and Brighton&Sussex for my four choices for medicine. I did a course at Nottingham called MedSim which was a bit like a taster course, that was good fun :) OH and there was this exam going on to get an interview for studying at the Charles University in Prague. I took the exam and fluked my way to an interview, then actually got an unconditional offer to study medicine there :D Shame fees there are about £10,000 a year, but oh well, it's good to have a back-up!

Oh, and I got a new hamster, Jeff. He's majorly hyper and evil and looks like Voldemort when he yawns but apart from that he's really cute :D

There's probably other stuff but I'm knackered from the night flight back from Corfu, and dad's on at me to go to bed.

BGT

Sat, 30 May 2009 21:49:04 GMT

DIVERSITY WON BRITAIN'S GOT TALENT :D

I thought SuBo was a dead cert to win, especially seeing as she got put through on public vote in the semis and Diversity went through because of the judges. I was SO shocked, but happy too, a) because their act was so original and brilliantly choreographed and b) because I voted for them :D

What is to become of Susan Boyle? She's bound to get a record deal and a film made and stuff like that buuuut I wouldn't be surprised if a big deal was made out of her not winning, probably someone blaming the media for alienating the public and that being the reason she didn't win. Fair enough, she's a great singer, but she's also WEIRD. And Diversity were just as good - if not better - an act than her.

I can't believe a physics student led and choreographed Diversity! And of course he's also very pretty :)

Holly was SO cute, and such a good little singer. But after what happened yesterday I'm pretty glad she didn't win, you wouldn't want her to forget the words and break down in front of the Queen.

STAVROS FLATLEY LOL. Phil the Greek would've loved it :D

I do love Simon Cowell, just a little bit. I actually think he's really funny, and all he does is tell the truth (if a bit directly), I can't really see why some people dislike him so much. My favourite line was:
"I do this show to give something back." XD

Shaun Smith should've been on X Factor, I don't see why he auditioned for BGT to be honest.

My love for Ant and Dec has been renewed. Ahhh, I remember the good old days when they presented sm:TV Live with Cat Deeley (at 9:25 every Saturday!). I always did prefer Dec though ^_^

I did have a bit of a soft spot for 2 Grand, but let's face it, the grandad was a little bit crap.

Uhh and other stuff :) But mainly, DIVERSITY ♥ That little kid with the big hair is amazing!

Unraveling the Mystery

Fri, 22 May 2009 10:56:56 GMT

The Big Bang Theory is my latest crack, it's the ultimate way to put off revision. I've only seen about half of the first series because that's all they have On Demand but still, it's brilliant ^_^ Dad loves it too, which is a little odd. He watched the thirteen episodes available in about four days. I think it's because he realises that, if he had gone to university, he would've ended up like them XD I even had a dream about it last night, and it was a good one. Koothrappali proposed to me =D

Emma and I took a 'which TBBT character are you?' quiz; she got Penny, I got Howard. HOWARD o_O The moral of this story is that Facebook quizzes are unsurprisingly inaccurate.

So I DEFINITELY need to buy series one after exams!

Marching On Together

Thu, 14 May 2009 21:22:58 GMT

I can't believe I just cried at the end of a football match, but three out of the past four years, Leeds Utd have been in the play-offs. And three out of those three years, they have just thrown it all away. They even managed to miss a penalty. Fools.

I haven't cried before now at football, ever, unless you count that time I wasn't picked for the school football team back when I was eight. I'm not even that big a supporter any more. Maybe it's all the years of complete failure finally getting to me. I remember the good old days, back when I was into football enough to try for the school team, where we'd always finish around fourth in the Premiership. And now look at us. Eight years on and we're still finishing fourth, but in League One. That's TWO LEAGUES DOWN.

The worst part is that we're still a bigger club than half the ones in the Premiership; are crowds are usually around 20,000, more than the rest of League One and the Championship AND half of the Premiership.

I'd bitch about the match in general, and about the twats that are Millwall, but I'm too depressed now, so /footballrant.

o_O

Mon, 11 May 2009 21:51:09 GMT

I just saw the Heroes season finale and my feelings towards it can be summed up very simply:

WHAT. THE. FUCK.

And at the moment I don't think I can add anything coherent to that.

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Spitze

Fri, 01 May 2009 20:25:07 GMT

Turns out, that minor nervous breakdown was for nothing. The exam went really well!

The text discussion was absolutely fail, it was about ethical clothing and very boring. But apart from that, I thought it was a really good exam. It was more like an actual discussion than a question and answer by the end, which is a good sign, and I relaxed a lot as the exam went on. The questions she asked were all nice, LOTS on mobiles and the internet, which was great, and nothing on sex, which was even better! Unfortunately I didn't get Bevormundungsstaat in there (she said she'd laugh if anyone said it), but NOTHING she asked me related to it. More questions on drugs or alcohol would've been nice, I had so much vocab for that, but I think I just didn't have time because I extended a lot of my answers.

Hoffentlich werde ich gute Noten bekommen, oder muss ich nächstes Jahr NOCHMAL Mathe machen!

Anbegriffsartikeln

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 17:40:35 GMT

...apparently, that's not a word in German. Which is a shame, really, as I'VE ONLY BEEN USING IT CONTINUOUSLY FOR THE PAST THREE MONTHS, AND MY SPEAKING TEST IS TOMORROW, AND NOW I WANT TO DIE.

I assume that the actual word is Angriffsartikel, (if in fact you can actually join the two words 'Angriff' and 'Artikeln' together, which now I'm not so confident about). That's not enough of a difference for me to remember the actual word for tomorrow, but there's just enough of a difference for me to be penalised for using it incorrectly and for Frau Neale to give me the dreaded Look of Pity.

So I'm blowing things a little bit out of proportiion. But you think someone would've corrected me on this before now, wouldn't you? I was already on edge about this exam and now I think I'm falling slowly off the edge and down into the ravine below. It just makes me worried that all my other good words I'm always using are wrong.

I can speak lovely German to my classmates, with lots of vocab and opinions. Then when I get into the speaking test everything seems to go to Hell. I just can't seem to think on my feet or even remember all of those good answers when I'm confronted with that microphone.

Aaaaaand now I'm even more worried after writing all that. Gahh.

Day Twenty-Five

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 20:57:40 GMT

I WON SCRIPT FRENZY!!!

Goooooooooooooooooood times =D

And I finished five days early! Of course, like NaNoWriMo, my story is nowhere near finished, and I have no idea how it WILL finished, but I've got 107 pages of script and I'm very very very happy about it =D

My official aim for the summer holidays will be to complete the first draft of this and my NaNo. And to actually name them. Is it very bad that neither of them have a name?

"A horse chesnut isn't a chesnut horse, is it?"

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 22:02:19 GMT

Oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we practise to deceive.

We went to the latest Agatha Christie play to hit Milton Keynes tonight; Spider's Web. We've been to the Agatha Christie productions there for a couple of years running and, like all the rest, this one was really good. It had a lot more humour in it than the other ones, but IMO the murderer was a lot more obvious; both my Dad and I guessed who it was by the interval. Plus Duffy from Casualty was in it, which was a huge surprise! It brought me back to pleasanter, simpler times when people just got pushed down stairs by stalkers and there was none of this council estate gang warfare.

In conclusion; better than The Unexpected Guest, not a patch on And Then There Were None. But I seriously doubt anything could beat ATTWN, that's probably my favourite play of all time =)

A Weather Report

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 11:01:34 GMT

We went to London yesterday. Mum and I went to see the play Three Days of Rain, and Dad took Kieran over to Highgate to see Karl Marx and other famous dead people.

Three Days of Rain was really good! Obviously I'm going to say that, it had James McAvoy in it and I've had a crush on him since he was Mr Tumnus in Narnia so I was quite clearly going to enjoy myself. I was desperate to go but I didn't think we would; the tickets were really expensive at first but the prices came right down a few weeks ago. We ended up with good seats in the stalls, so I was about 10 metres away from him =D

It's kind of hard to explain what it was about. A brother, sister and their childhood friend meet up in this abandoned loft in New York, which was where their fathers - who were renowned architects - made up all their plans. The father of the brother and sister had died, and they were dividing up his legacy as well as trying to find answers to what had happened between their parents. Then in the second half it shifted back in time, and it focussed on the two fathers whilst they were trying to come up with a design for a house which would later be their most famous design.

James McAvoy was the brother and later his father, Nigel Harman (little Den, back when Eastenders was good) was the friend and later his father, and Lyndsey Marshall was the sister and later her mother. They were all really good, actually, all their American accents were completely flawless, but I did think James was the best. He had two completely different characters to play - the brother was a bit of a mental case, and the father was a reserved stutterer - and he was completely believable as both of them.

Afterwards we met up with Dad and Kier and went to the Rainforest Cafe. We haven't been to the one in London since I was about eight and it wasn't as good as we'd remembered it. It's a lot better in Florida, but then what isn't!

Dreamtime v2.0

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 10:59:11 GMT

Two more Alias dreams last night. I can't really remember them though, because I kept on waking up in the night. One of them was about how Sark became a baddie (apparently he returned some mob boss's wallet) and in the other one Sydney, Jack and Irina had to get out of a trap set by Sark as revenge for some experiment Irina did on him. I woke up before the end of the last one, which was a shame because I really wanted to see how Irina was going to get out of the chair she and a load of explosives were stuck to.

Then I had one which was seriously odd.

I was with Clare, Joe and Daniel, and first of all there was some Godzilla-esque attack on the town we were in. We dodged all the attacks and ran down some corridor to hide. There was a window there, and through it we could see some boy sinking into the mud with all these ants all over him. I shouted to his friends to help him but they didn't listen to me, so Daniel and I ran outside to save the kid. When we got there I tried to pull him out but then I realised that the ants weren't ants, they were bees, and they had stuck him into the ground with honey. After a lot of heaving Daniel and I eventually freed him, and I realised he was a friend of my brother. He wasn't breathing, so Daniel cleared all the honey out of his mouth and I was about the give him mouth-to-mouth, then he woke up. By this point Clare had reached us and announced that "at this point, the script just writes itself!". After the trauma of nearly dying and rescuing someone from killer bees Clare and I decided that life was too short, and that we were going to finish Script Frenzy together that night, and so we walked off together as my Biology teacher started hailing Daniel as a hero.

So things are definitely getting better on the dream front again!

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Dreamtime

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 22:33:58 GMT

I've been having Alias-based dreams lately. I haven't had any really good dreams in ages, which has been annoying me because I love it when I wake up with a brilliantly random story in my head.

So a few days ago I dreamt that Claire and I went to Universal Studios and we queued up for a ride behind Ron Rifkin. I was like "OMG Sloane", and we started talking to him and he was really quite nice. Claire said she'd take a picture of the two of us, but she kept on messing the shot up and it was his turn on the ride before I got a decent picture. So I was pissed off with Claire for the rest of the day. Very odd, not least of all the part about Claire being accepting of my obsessions!

Then yesterday I had an epic dream, it was fab. I think it was of those dreams which is really many dreams rolled into one. First off Jack was going off on some major mission and was leaving the details of it in a bucket of fast food for Sydney. But he had to do it quickly so it went unnoticed, and he ran out of time and had to leave the most important part of the mission out.
In the next part of the dream I was kind of watching the scene in the third person but was also Sydney at the same time. Sydney-Me was in some Jeep-chase with Sark and one of his croneys through some woods, whilst Outsider-Me was musing about how hot Sark was looking and how I should make some icons of the scene.
Then the dream shifted again and I arrived at Sark's house all dressed up with my family. We went inside and met some randomer who was his wife (???) and was really quite nice, but I was still suspicious of Sark so I went poking round his house. I bumped into him in the back of the house but I didn't want him to know I was spying on him so I just pretended I was looking for the bathroom. So I went off snooping some more, but then I woke up =(

Anyway, it was totally worth having a load of fail dreams for so long after that amazing at life one last night. And I'm watching Wedding Crashers at the moment, so I'm hoping for another kick-ass Alias dream tonight because it has Bradley Cooper in it, which I only just realised when Kieran turned the tv on =D

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Day Seven

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 18:33:31 GMT

I hit the 20 page mark for Screnzy, and Clare and I split. Neither of us was too fussed about splitting to be honest, it was never going to work what with revision and the holidays. She's got her own story going and she seems to be doing pretty well with it, considering she started late. I did offer to give her what I'd done and she could continue from there but she preferred to start her own.

Revision is going... well, a bit shit really. I've been bullet pointing from the Biology specification and I swear it's just making up a load of words (agglutination and epidemiological, WTF). I attempted a statistics paper as well... I got up to question four and then lost the will to live and started watching Alias instead. There is a strong possibility that I will kill myself in that exam. Joe and I have organised a German revision day for tomorrow, which should be fun. Not as many people are coming as I would have liked but there's enough to get a decent amount of work done and have a laugh at the same time.

Mum let me drive to Nan's today! She was annoying as hell at first but she kind of mellowed out after a little while, even though she kept unnecessarily hitting the passenger brake. I think it's going well though; hopefully I should take my test in the summer holidays, I'm competent enough at the moment but it's just my manoeuvres that I need to work on.

Childishness

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 11:28:14 GMT

Someone joined a "I wish I had Bernard's watch!" group on Facebook. LYK OMG, I loved that show beyond belief. Seriously. Far too much of my childhood was spent wishing that I had that watch. I had so many dreams when I was little of something bad happening and me being able to stop time and stop it with the aid of that amazing watch (except in my dreams the watch would also sometimes allow me to go back in time, which would have been extra amazing). Hell, I STILL have dreams like that every now and then!

Looking back, I think this show probably influenced me more than any other. Which is seriously lame now I think about it. I've always thought that if I could have any power from Heroes (aside from Peter's), I'd have Hiro's, and that's probably because of this show.

LMAO, he used to swap his exam papers with that Karen kid as well, what a fucking cheater. He wasted that watch though. If I'd had it I would have done things way cooler than winning at snakes and ladders!

You just can't beat kids TV from the 90s =)

The Outline

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 20:39:31 GMT

Aside from helping to name three characters, my Script Frenzy partner is yet to make any contribution to the outline of our script. She just said to me now that she's dreadful at plot. She could have told me this before I committed to writing with her for a month. I regret pairing up already; besides just being better at working alone it also means that I can just let my imagination run wild without having to put ideas past anyone else. I don't think we'll be finishing Screnzy together...

At any rate, here is the basic outline to our script:

Guy is security guard
Things get stolen
Guy loses job
Guy loses wife
Guy tries to solve mystery of things being stolen
Guy meets girl
Girl is incredibly reluctant to give guy information
Guy realises just how dangerous this mystery is
Girl saves guy
Girl reluctantly joins up with guy to solve the mystery
Guy falls in love with girl
Girl and guy solve mystery after lots of twists and turns
Guy and girl get together
Wife comes back
Guy chooses wife or girl
Guy lives unhappily ever after with wife or happily ever after with girl

I'm thinking The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time meets Alias. Unbeknownst to Clare, we've already paid tribute to Alias by calling the girl Eva Sydney!

And Writing Again

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 21:38:41 GMT

I haven't written anything just for fun in ages, probably not since before nanowrimo. I only just realised today how much I miss it. It's nice to have something like that; something that's poorly structured and lacks any real plot and will never be seen by human eyes, because it's great to just write, without worrying about what other people will think and without insane, breakdown-inducing deadlines. So I dug out that old Human Torch fanfic that I started on a dare one school trip after far too much sugar, and just picked up where I left off. It's a disgrace to the written word and I love it!

I'd love to start another fic right now, one done properly to get me back into the swing of things, but I'm sure I've got many other half-finished ones lying around the place and, as Script Frenzy starts next week, I should probably focus on that instead. And then May = exams = Mum breathing down my neck 24/7, so maybe when June comes I can (I hope!) get back into it.

If only it could go on my personal statement...

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I'm In Love

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 20:17:24 GMT

Yes, I have fallen in love with a little thing called technology. I got my iphone today and I'm actually posting this with a livejournal app! Amaaazing!

EDIT: Except it doesn't post with mood themes, I've had to use the good old fashioned computer for that, but oh well, it's still amazing at life =D

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Writing Again

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 17:52:32 GMT

Script Frenzy starts in two weeks and I can't wait =D I've been looking forward to it ever since NaNoWriMo finished, and now it's just around the corner I really need to read up on formatting!

I'm working on it with Clare, who also did NaNoWriMo last year, it kind of went without saying that we'd be working together on this. We had some major discussion about it over lunch yesterday and we've got a bare outline of a plot and an MC in the making, although that all may be subject to change. The one thing we do know it that it's going to be mystery (but that'll probably give way to action), and that the MC is a bit of an anti-hero. I had a go at drawing him in Biology today. Clare will probably hate it; he looks like a cross between a homeless person and a librarian, and my limited drawing skills don't help!

Also I'm going to have to write alone for the first five days of April because Clare's going on the Berlin trip. I'm very jealous. If I could go back I probably would've taken History solely for that trip, they're getting custom made hoodies and everything. German work experience just won't compare!

Results

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 16:01:26 GMT

Got the results from my January exams today, and all that worrying was for naught! I got As in everything, even Chemistry, I was JUST on the right side of the A/B grade boundary. Disgustingly my best mark was for General Studies, which counts for fuck all if you want to go to a proper university, and which I've been to only three lessons of. Plus Mum of course managed to rain on my parade by telling me that my Chemistry result was a 'low A', and that I needed to improve it for the June exam because 'universities look at UMS as well as grades'. Apparently I'll never be good enough for the woman.

But hey, low A or not, here comes the iPhone!

Kensei Wallpaper

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 21:43:51 GMT

I really need a new monitor for my computer. I've realised that this one makes everything look faded, which messes up anything I make on Photoshop and they turn up too bright or with the contrast too high.

So I made this wallpaper, uploaded it on imageshack, saw what it looked like on the family computer and then tried to change it for the better back on my PC upstairs. And then changing it again because I somehow managed to misspell 'Kensei' (thanks midnightdream__ !). Obviously this is a ridiculous scheme so I plan on ~~stealing~~ trading my monitor for my brother's some time in the forseeable future.

Anyway, here's the Kensei wallpaper, in sizes 1024x768 and 1440x900. Constructive criticism would be MUCH appreciated because I'm a bit of a newbie in making backgrounds anyway and the whole monitor issue makes things that bit more fail!

Click to enlarge =)

1024x768

1440x900

Your Tail Goes Swish & Your Wheels Go Round

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 17:08:30 GMT

...giddy up, we're homeward bound.

I gave up horseriding today. It feels weird. 45 minutes into my lesson it hit me, and I felt so sad when I realised that I hadn't even got round to doing a canter by that point, when it would probably be my last chance to do it for - if not never - a very long time. I almost cried when I dismounted. And I wanted to give it up, but I suppose that I've just never been very good with change.

On a brighter note dad got more memory for my computer yesterday which means that now it actually boots up at a reasonable speed. So now I can open Photoshop once more without risking complete and utter computer meltdown (it's graphic making time!), and also I can play WORD CHALLENGE on Facebook in my room and try very hard to beat the impossible challenge set by someone who I considered a friend until he annihilated my old top score XD